Dream. OR. Reality?

i want to start this by first, apologizing to anyone who is finding out about this

right now.
here.
reading this blog post.

you see, i have been in a fog. living in a dream. not reality. thus i haven't been able to fully accept this news...... just yet.

and my hubs has been one busy boy. accepting and living in the moment....HIS moment. thus, he hasn't had enough hours in the day to pick up the phone and call everyone to share this {bittersweet} news.

and secondly, i need to take this opportunity to praise my husband. because, i have been living in self-pity and haven't been able to give him the acknowledgment he well deserves.

here goes.....

let me take you back. WAYYY back to 2003. the hubs and i graduated from oklahoma state. he got a job right out of college, which relocated him to dallas, texas. he started working for the worlds largest property insurance company, FM Global, as a consultant engineer. he held this position for 2.5 years when an opportunity came open in the claims department. he quickly jumped on it and worked in that department for 2.5 years as well. then he moved to be an underwriter/account manager, which is his current position.

until now.

you see, for 7 years, my husband has been talking to anyone and everyone that would listen to find out what he needed to do to get into sales within the company.

it
was
his
DREAM
job.

the social aspect of it. the money aspect of it. the actual sales part of it. he wanted to be in sales. and within the last 7 years he has had several broken promises/false hopes that he was going to get a sales job. like to the point that we were looking at homes in other cities. telling our friends and families that we were moving....ONLY to be crushed at the end with no sales job after all. i think i could say that the hubs was beginning to be jaded by the whole experiences.

time
after
time.

the positive that came from all the broken promises was the hubs name got around. and i mean, it got around. in a very positive light. to very important people. in all of the company. and looking back, we can honestly and whole heartily say, it wasn't meant to be. the other sales positions that were told would be his, were not meant for us.

which brings me to....

the here.
the now.
the move.

it was september 10th, the hubs came home from being out of town. he told me he had some news to share with me. we were standing in the kitchen. he said he got an email from the head of sales for the eastern division and that there was going to be a job opening in the new york office and if he wanted it, it was his. i stood there. i felt the tears coming. i looked at him. he had tears in his eyes as well. the difference was - mine were tears of fear. his were tears of happiness. and thus began the roller coaster ride.

yet again.

except this time it was different. this time we have two babies in the mix. but, we jump on the ride and it was taking us to the east coast. ready or not.

for two months....we looked at houses on line. the hubs went to visit the area. he talked money. the job. start dates. everything was discussed. and while he was discussing all the details with work, we spent our days talking logistics. praying. and praying some more. and in the end....it just wasn't meant to be. yet A.G.A.I.N. so, we were able to tell the handful of people we shared the news with that we were not moving. and we resumed life as normal. knowing good and well that this was going to happen again. but NEVER expecting it to happen in less than a month!

yep, less than a month after NY was said and done....
here
comes
OHIO.
and boy-oh-boy did it happen F.A.S.T.

within 7 days adam got a phone call. took a trip to cleveland. interviewed. and had the job pending my visit. so, we made arrangements for the boys for the weekend before christmas. had our tickets and hotel {b&b} booked. but the boys got sick thus we had to cancel the trip. so, we went the thursday - saturday after christmas. we were there to bring in the new year. we spent the first day of 2011 in our soon to be new home town of.....cleveland ohio. he officially accepted the business development executive position this past monday, the 3rd of january. he is on cloud 9. as he should be. he has worked extremely hard to get to this point.

i always knew i married a go-getter. an ambitious, never one to settle. always wanting more. always looking towards the future, yet enjoying the present. a goal setter. and goal achiever kind of man. a man who loves his family more than anything. a man i am so extremely proud of. a man i am so happy to be able to share my life with. {even if that means moving to the burbs of cleveland}.

so, my friends, family and stalkers {yea, even you} i ask that if you are the praying kind {which, of course you are} please pray for my family during this time. i feel at peace about this move. i feel that this is a door that was opened by the Lord and thus we gladly walk thru it. but i can't say i'm not scared out of my mind. moving 1200 miles away from home. with two babies. not knowing a single.soul. makes me a little uneasy. we are leaving our support system: my mom and larry who live 3 miles away and who have been nothing but the biggest blessings to us during the most challenging times of our lives. and our tulsa family who are only 3.5 hours away. {which never sounded so close as it does now}.

i ask that if you or anyone {this is where the stalkers come into play} you know have any words of wisdom regarding ohio, please share with me as i know nothing about this place. i mean NOTHING other than it's freezing cold. or better yet...if you live there or know somebody who does - feel free to introduce me. i think i'll even go out on a limb and say i'll pay you to be my friend. or babysit, either way works for me.

think this is all i have for now. we don't know any moving details other than, we will list the house and if it doesn't sell before 75 days, the company buys it. so, i guess i can say, we {the boys, ki'ya and myself} will be here for 75 days pending the house doesn't sell before that. adam will start commuting sooner rather than later.

2011.....

i'm not sure i'm ready for you. in fact, i'm really quite nervous of you and what you have in store for my family. but, i can't run from you so, please be nice to us. your younger brother, 2010 was by far the best year of my life....don't you want to be like him?!?!